I like to be honest. I’m not scared of honest. There is something freeing about sharing honesty.
I just want to be in the right mind set. I want to be doing what I’m called to do. I have no interest in dillydallying around; putting focus where I’m not meant to. I also don’t want to be sitting around staring at the wall either. Whatever it is I step into, I want it to be the thing(s) God wants me to be doing; with the right intentions and healthy mindset. The struggle has been real. It’s gotten easier though. You see clearly the realness of how powerful God is the more you step into his presence. I’m seeing the importance of going after our callings. It’s not just a thing I hear about, it’s become more real than that. When seeking after him each day you want to do what he has for you and do it with excellence.
I have had dreams and desires within ministry for years. I struggled for a long time believing God could use me anywhere but I know now that was always a lie. God has reveled things that have left me wowed and also like, “now what do I do?” I get tripped up easily and sometimes question, “Am I just being selfish?” Or “Is this really for me?” Distractions, fear, overthinking, comparison, and just life’s issues can bring a person down terribly. It’s a mental beat down from good ole self. The thing is “it can” bring me down but it’s for me to decide if I’ll allow it to. It’s in the quiet moments with God I overcome and move forward. I also notice it’s in those quiet moments the enemy will try and creep in with those things. Why? because he doesn’t want to see anyone go after something their supposed to thrive in for God.
Christian Cains words recently spoke strongly to me. She said ” when you are running your own race in your own lane at full throttle, you don’t have time for distractions, comparison or competition. It takes every ounce of energy you have to fix your eyes on Jesus and remain obedient to his call on your life.” She also said, “Time is short, get about the fathers business.” The Fathers business is what I want to be apart of, never the “Chelsea business.” When you decide to stick with his business sometimes you’ll have to lay some things down. Sometimes it’s laying down your pride or self made plans without going to him about them first.
One thing I do know is that when I am weak he is my strength. Him being my strength is where I know to gain that “full throttle” from. He is my guide and confidence. He’s the one who has improved me in many areas and is continuing to do so. I give him glory for all that. Yesterday I saw a shirt that said, “The struggle is real, but so is God.” He’s bigger than it all. Focus is the main thing he’s been helping me through each day.
Lastly, I don’t believe I’m the only who has or sometimes still finds myself in this place. Know that God has placed a calling on your life as well. Whether it’s through speaking, writing, music, in your work place, etc. I want to see you thrive in it. I want to see you do what you’re supposed to do in excellence. You can. God is the one to lean on when your struggle gets real. Focus on His business alone. Keep on keeping on. He’ll guide through it all.