From Identity Crisis to Identity in Christ

My mom knows I love planners, so she bought me one for my birthday. Its front cover says, “Plan out your future and make your dreams reality.” Whenever I read these words my mind goes to these two verses:  

“The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand.” Psalms 37:23-24(NLT)

“Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires.” Psalms 37:4 (NLT).

            For many years I didn’t know what it meant to find my identity in Christ or understand how he could lead my life. I thought “how does someone I can’t even see direct me?” I went about this time trying to figure it out on my own. I wasn’t sure who I was or who I was supposed to be, but I was determined to figure that out. My first 2 years of college I changed my major from education, to nursing, to broadcast journalism and then back to education. I picked nursing because I thought some people would see me in a more prestigious light.  But guess what? I hated it! I didn’t even want to give my classmates a fake physical. After realizing this was not for me I panicked. Too many people in my life kept speaking negatively to me about becoming a teacher. So what did I do next? I tried to find a new career path that would be a little more impressive. My husband and I lived in Gainesville FL at the time, so we would attend a lot of the UF games. There were many times I’d see this sports reporter named Tracy Wolfson. I thought, “I want to be just like Tracy! She’s so cool and her job looks awesome!” Next thing you knew I marched into my guidance counselor office to change my major to broadcast journalism. Now in no way am I saying you should never change your major or be inspired by others. What I did was make these choices all for the wrong reasons. I did it to hear things like: “that’s an excellent choice Chelsea,” “it’s so much better than going into teaching,” or “wow! That is really awesome!” All that mattered was finding ways to never have people question me. Continue reading